I don’t know if it is the change of season or the sheer amount of accumulated sleep deprivation, but I am exhausted.
After a little introspection into my recent lackluster state, I have come to realize that maybe, just maybe, it was the lifestyle I chose that was the culprit. It’s that I have been my own boss for exactly 5 years now – Damask & Dentelle was launched on October 21st 2009, on the first birthday of my daughter Madison – and that I have never completely turned the off button since.
Owning my own company + the fact that I now work from home means that I never really quit. Add to that a non-negligeable dependance to social media, under the pretext that it’s work (who am I fooling really?) and there you have an over-connected and under-rested business woman/mom of 3.
I love what I do, don’t get me wrong, but I realize that the rhythm at which I am going is completely insane and mostly… unsustainable on the long-term.
So I have made a decision, for real! I have decided that I will now order myself a “normal” schedule of work and that I will try to rediscover what it’s like to work from 9 to 5. I know it might be impossible to really have that kind of schedule, after all I do my most quiet work at night, but I will try really hard to organize my days in order to have most of my work done during the day and to then unwind and disconnect when evening comes.
I think this change, although benign to some, will make a huge difference on my restlessness, on my being present in the moment for my family and on my attentiveness to my – in real life – social networks!
And you know what? I am not saving lives, I am sure emails can wait 12 hours for my reply. What do you say?