I am a lizard, well at least I think I am. I love basking in the sun, lazily sashaying myself from a comfortable spot to another, without any agenda whatsoever.
Over the years, I have come to know myself… all of myself, including my Achilles heel that is discipline. I know I can lift mountains when I set my mind to it, and yet it sometimes seems an impossible feat, even for the simplest of tasks.
What’s worse is that I wasn’t always like this. I remember a time when I could refuse a piece of desert without a pang of envy, or when I could write 10 blogposts in advance in order to have a computer free time off with my family.
I have read the books and listened to the motivational speakers encouraging me, as I listened to their shellacked performances and aspirational pathways on my phone while running. I have written in the progress journals and set myself realistic goals. But it seems that the only goal I can achieve over and over again, is to disappoint myself.
As I now inch, one day at a time, towards my 38th birthday I have come to realize something. Oust shall go the books and all the rest! The only discipline I will now follow will be my own. The one that feels good to me, my reality, and my lazy lizard body.
There, you take that self-esteem! It’s time to get out of your slumber and move your ass, we have a book to write !
xx
source: Katarina Sokolova, Pink Sugarland, La Vita di Moda
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Haha I have read many books too, and I was trying to fight the lizard every day. But sometimes, I just want to be myself! :)
I read something that rang true to me the other day: managing time is really about managing energy. Lightbulb moment for me, as I can’t quite have that sacro-saint discipline wich I put on my sholders (too). We live busy lives and we can’t expect to have the same amount of energy all the time. Managing my energy levels is easier for me and my self-esteem. ;)
Food for thought indeed. :)
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